Gratitude

Some of you may know that a few weeks ago I had a crazy experience. During that time I felt like I had a whole taken out of the time span of my life and it was an indefinite amount of time. But the problem was that I really did have a life. I had to put everything on hold.
So I was dreading coming back to school. I was terrified an mad about it. I get on the plane already stressed about school work and I don't even know what I am supposed to be doing at that time.
Well this situation cause a bit of a problem. I was unable to go back to school. Let me tell you what. I have never felt like fighting for school was so important. I So badly wanted to come back to school. Not because of friends, well not totally because of friends but because it is an important step in life for me. I just knew I needed to finish this.
At this time I was hardly able to walk. I would be bent over like L and I always had multiple packs of ice on me. If I didn't I would be screaming in pain. I decided that I needed- had to fly back. I was so scared to get back on the plane. It is one of the most scary things I have ever done. And it wasn't because of my phobia of TSA. It was the fear of the pain. Ugh. But I did it.

That first day of school back, All I could think was how lucky that I could be at school. That I could go to school and finish. How lucky that I could walk short distances and talk. (talking was really hard earlier too)
It is a total change in personality for me. I am always stressing about something, regretting something, or worried about what is going to happen. I am quite the pessimist. But Now I am so grateful that I know that I am in the right spot because it really was a freak situation and it really brought me back to seeing the small things that are SO important.