The Skinny

I SO badly want to be skinny. I was once and it was a lot of work, but I want to be skinny now. That is the problem, it takes SO long and I just have the hardest time doing it. I do have a tendency to become slightly OCD, well the people I lived with in high school would take out the word "slightly".
Now, I do not have a problem with eating fruits and vegetables. I do not have a problem with eating food low in sugar and low in fat. I do not have a problem with exercising. The fact is that I am lazy. I give up with the consistency and I beat myself up.
First I see me in a photo and I realize how FAT I really am. Like a bunch of marshmallows. I realize that I am really fat and need to loose weight. I remember how hard it is and how much pain it takes. Then I look at what I wish I was. Let's face it. It would take more than a full time job to become that. I am just not willing to put all that pain and agony in it.
I keep planning, I keep putting rules down, and I still fail. I fail, I fail, I fail. But I want, want, and want to be skinny. How do I do it without all the headaches?

One day it will happen.